The Soundtrack Of My Life............

Think about a movie or a TV show that you have watched that has touched you in some way. Now think of the exact moment it touched you deep down into the inner workings of your soul. You were watching. The touching thing happens. You feel pretty touched. But then....... out of no where........ the sound of musical notes tickle the tips of your ears. Your heart begins to feel warm. You wonder if this is what the Grinch felt like before his heart grew 3 times that day. Before you know it a full-on musical score throws your whole world off course. Your so touched your heart stops for a mili-second. You feel feelings you've never felt before. This MUST be how the Grinch felt that day! Then, just when your absorbing and enjoying this confusing and wonderful feeling. The music stops. The feelings instantly disappear. It all happened so fast. Whatever the uber-emotion was that entered your system, has vanished without a trace. It did not even ask for your phone number.

The perfect song in a movie or TV show conveys an emotion or a feeling a ba-jillion (yeah I said ba-jillion) times better. For example, yeah it's really sad that you met the love of your life last week, and this week a horrific event has happened that separated you. After struggling to survive you went from one obstacle to another while trying to find the love of your life. The love you had known for that deal-sealing 1 week. Movie Heroine I really did want you to find him, especially since he was also desperately searching for you. I even pointed at the screen and yelled, "He's in the elevator next to you," after y'all just missed each other for the 5th time.

So you see I really did want you to find him, but my life still felt complete. Your incompleteness had not affected me enough yet to question my own completeness. I couldn't feel the same way that your were feeling at this moment because I knew it wasn't real.

But then after 5 years of searching. Just when you had given up. You and your love ended up at the same place at the same time. Who knew that you had both been friends with Reese Witherspoon's character the whole time. You lock eyes. Silence. My head thinks "YES! I knew they were meant to be together! But really, 5 years? They were always minutes away from each other and had the same damn friend the whole time?! No Way!" At the same time synapses from my brain are forming these similar words to send to my mouth. But like lightening. Apparently faster than nerve synapses. The music starts. Emotions. Warm Feelings. Heart skips a beat. Cynicism turns to Elation. I feel like the completeness is actually happening to me. My tear ducts are doing something strange. Stop Tear Ducts! Stop! I am on a date STOP! Music stops. Credits Roll. The feeling of complete normalcy returns. Quick glances around. No one saw. Did they?

Now, that my friends, is the power of a great movie song. Even reality TV stars get songs to emphasize moments in their lives. Most of the moments are not even deserving of the song.

So obviously this got me thinking. Where's my music for all of my life's moments. I need my own soundtrack. I need the musical notes of gumption, awesomeness, that make you want to cry for me, that say this drunk kiss with whats-his-name is really magical. You get the point. Basically I need my own soundtrack.

Below I have listed some moments in life that I may need a song for. Really I have listed some of the first things that popped into my head, without giving it much thought. I wanted to give you a little sprinkling of what's to come. I am asking you, my fellow friends, to help me out this year. Help me build my soundtrack to life. And then, just maybe, maybe, one day, I can have someone follow me around and play every necessary song at every necessary moment. It will be glorious! And remember this is all about me. I can see your mind wandering. Thinking of your own songs. You can make your soundtrack after I have made mine;)

The first moment I am going to put down, has been my head song for a few years now. Head song? Well there is an Ally McBeal episode where Ally learns everyone needs a head song. This is the song that plays when you need that extra boost of confidence. That makes you walk or strut into a room where people will notice you. The one you use when you run into an ex-boyfriend with a new girlfriend and you are alone. So this first moment will be listed as the Head Song Moment. I have also decided to start my first volume of life soundtrack with oldies songs.

1.) Head Song Moment- She's a Lady by Tom Jones.

                                                              You Feel Like This

                                            Heads Song can instantly switch you to this!

2.) The moment you have had just enough beers to be so excited to dance but that dance will not bring all the boys to the yard - Bust a Move by Young MC or maybe a little Dancing Queen by ABBA

3.) I have had a bad day and don't know what to do on a random week night moment- Downtown by Petula Clark


4.) I did something stupid.....again......people are judging.....am I shrinking? A Little Respect by Erasure

5.) The Bottom of the Barrel and a drink is needed- One Bourbon, One Scotch, One Beer by George Thorogood and a little I Wish it Would Rain by the Temptations

6.) My heart was just broken and I am in the mood to "take whiskey shots and sing out loud to myself, to my girlfriends, or  to the bar" moment- These Eyes by the Guess Who

                                                        
7.) I am going to do what I want, and I may get into trouble- I love Rock N' Roll by Joan Jett

8.) For my attention whore moments- Brass in Pocket  by the Pretenders

9.) If a punk ass bitch ho tries to start a rumor about me- None of your Business by Salt n' Peppa

10.) Someone is teetering dangerously on the edge of pissing me off- These Boots are Made for Walking by Nancy Sinatra

11.) Being in the Great Outdoors for the first time after a Winter. Or acting like its summertime when really it is obviously not- In the Summertime by Mungo Jerry

                                                             Or Wishing for A Warm Great Day

12.) When I step from the responsibility train to the "how did I get here" irresponsibility platform- Where Did Our Love Go by the Supremes and If I could Turn Back Time by Cher.

Back From Holiday!

So, if you haven't already noticed.....I took the month of December off from blogging. December was a whirlwind of a month, and there was just so much that went on!!! Well I am back, and I am ready to get this 2011 year of blogging started.

What better way to start off the year of blogging than to go over some things that I wish to accomplish this year. This list is not set in stone, I am a procrastinator who tends not to accomplish things placed on lists. This year,  I will loosely list some things that I think I could reasonably accomplish during a one year span. My only hope is that a few of these get checked off. (Please note that none of the things below talk about working out, that is just the most depressing resolution.):

1.) Read! Read! Read!!!!! I think reading is good for the soul, and I am setting out to read at least one book a month or 12 books this year. First on my list is Abraham Verghese's, Cutting For Stone. ( Ok. To be honest, I started the book in 2010 but I am only half way through.)

2.) Improve my geography skills. If I am going to be an ancient mariner, I need to know more about the world. Step 1, learn all the countries of the world and be able to place them on a map.

3.) Continue to make new friends here in Denver and build upon my relationships with the friends I have. Yes friends, that means many many 2011 adventures for us!

4.) Men.

5.) Learn how to do things on my own. First step, move into my own apartment and decorate it. Just like I don't cook , I don't really decorate...so this could be interesting.

6.) Get a passport....this will be my first step to traveling.

7.) Do something I have never done before. I know its vague, but I don't make plans:)

8.) Buy a bicycle.

9.) Plan myself an amazing 28th birthday party.

10.) Pay off all of my credit card debt!

These will be some of the stepping stones for my 2011 year. It may not seem like a lot, but these are just some of the many things I want to do. Although I can't forget, one of my top priorities is still staying on the good side of the universe. So here's to the new year, lets see where 2011 takes me!